Reason behind habit

well, as u can see, i have a Plugoo box to the left of my blog entries, its connected directly to my MSN messenger, so feel free to leave a message. that is, if you don't want your comments to be known ...

Anyway, i resolved, that i was going to study (after reading another chapter of the manga) when i suddenly wanted to grab something to munch on ... so i went to the kitchen, scanned the fridge and my line of eyesight landed upon the pitted prunes (sunsweet). so i took it out, put it on a table near the basin. When i reached for the chopsticks, i looked up to the TV and saw Zhou Hua Jian/ Wakin/ Emil Chau. so i thought, wow cool i can listen to him sing! so i ate some of the prunes using the chopsticks because i don't want the sticky juice to stick on my fingers, and Emil Chau talked to the emcee the entire time. i was still standing behind the kitchen at that time, and the commercial came before he got to sing something (-_-)ll| ...

Well, my point is... the 4th prune was going into my mouth when suddenly i had a flashback of my mom asking me why do I eat like a maid. Meaning, i have this habit to eat behind the kitchen counter, away from the living room (actually more like, away from the view of the people sitting in the living room). Yeah, so at that time i suddenly realized why ... it was because my dad would always chase me away from the living room whenever i'm watching tv. so i was pretending to eat/drink behind the counter, hoping that my existence was not known there. so that i could watch more of the tv. here is an example of my living room/ kitchen space
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sofa . . . TV
wallwallwall
sink&counter
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Exam

Well, I'm having my STPM now. I just finished my 3rd last paper an hour ago. I don't know why, but exam seems exciting, my heart won't settle down the night before, and i'll stay awake for hours, ending up not getting enough sleep for the next day. its crazy. You'd think I'm getting married the next day or something.

and, shortly after finishing a test, the solution of a question would suddenly cross my mind. They have the WORST possible timing. "wow, you're so clever, you could do the question" (at last). yeah right, except it doesn't show on your results slip. I'm so frustrated i want to bite some ginger!

aww, and my biggest disappointment in Mathematics T paper 2, is that there was NO question on relative velocity! After cutting out Mechanics and Kinematics in the STPM syllabus, then take out Relative Velocity, there's none but little Physics element in the paper anymore! for me, that's like, you get all nervous and excited to get married the next day, then at the church, you get the wrong groom. Not getting the things you anticipated for, sucksss ....

Mukatsuku (irritated)

Its been 3 days since my mom went to China with her heng muis (siblings), together with my sister, who is the youngest of the bunch, and probably still wondering over her agreement to tag along those middle aged people. well, at least she don't need to spend ren min bis on food, since i have an aunt who frequent China, and seem to know all the lubangs for good food (plus, generous acquaintances).

Anyway, back to Malaysia, stuck as the only female at home, naturally i'm expected to cook for the remaining members of the family. i don't mind, as long as the ingredients i have are the ones i can identify. i don't know why, but i got super annoyed at the sight of the bunch of vegetables my dad just bought. to avoid taking out my frustration on the vege later, i'm writing to vent it all out. its not that i can't cook it, but the process of getting the vege ready to be cooked is tedious. its such a big bunch and without separating them, JAN! dad displayed them on the board and chopped them into half. I have no choice then... ;_; I'm looking forward to a husband whose career is in the cooking industry. preferably a chinese cuisine chef. well actually, as long as he can make edible stuff, i don't really mind. (though a pastry chef is good too!) xD

Before logging off, i'm going to add the lyrics to the song playing in my blog. Its "Te wo Tsunaide" by "Younha". People would usually recognize this korean singer from the anime, Bleach's closing theme "Houki Boushi" which is awesome as well. Originally she was more popular in Japan for her japanese songs, but i guess now shes pretty well known in the region. Anyway, take a look at the lyrics.

Te Wo Tsunaide

Younha

Romaji Kutsu wo nugisute hadashi ni natta Soshite atashi wa nami wo ketta Futari tsukutta suna no shirotachi sawaranai you ni Dakedo sugu nami ni kesarete Atashi wa youyaku omoi ni kizuita Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Anata e no omoi wa kawaranai tashika na koto yo Baby I love you more every day and night Te wo tsunaida naraba dokomademo ikeru ki ga suru Te wo tsunagu aite ni naritai naa Atashi to jaa nee dame desu ka? Onegai Tenki yohou ga “Ashita wa hare deshou” to tsutaeru Ame ga futara omoi tsutaeyou Kedo mata yohou wa atatte Atashi wa kyou mo omoi himete iru Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Samishii toki wa sugu ai ni iku yakusoku suru yo Can you hear my song I sing for you every night? Hitori ja nai tte koto Atashi ga nee oshiete ageru Anata e no omoi egaki kami hikouki tobasu Tsuyoi kaze ga fuite nerai yori hazure Ochite mienaku natta Nanika shinakya hajimaranai Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Ima anata ni mukai tsutaeyou yuuki furishibotte Baby I love you more every day and night Kotae ga dou de are ima dekiru koto wo yarun da to Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Anata ga iru dake de zutto tsuyoku nareru ki ga suru Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Te wo tsunaida naraba dokomademo ikeru ki ga suru Te wo tsunagu aite ni naritai naa Atashi to jaa nee dame desu ka? Kotaete yo

English I took off my shoes so I was barefooted And then I kicked at the waves To keep them away from the sandcastles we’d built together But the waves washed over them right away And I finally realised how much I love you Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart The one sure thing is that my affection for you wouldn't change Baby I love you more every day and night When we’re holding hands it felt like we can go anywhere I want to be the person holding your hand Don’t you want me to? Please The weather forecast says “It’ll be fine tomorrow” If it rains I’ll tell you my feelings But the weather forecast is right again So my love stays hidden again today Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart I’ll come to you the minute you get lonely, I promise Can you hear my song I sing for you every night? I'm telling you You’re not alone I draw my love for you on a paper plane and throw it But a strong wind blows it off course I can’t see where it landed Nothing will happen if I don’t do something Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Now I’m going to get up the courage to tell you to your face Baby I love you more every day and night Whatever the answer is, I’ll do what I can Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart Just your being here makes me feel like I can be so much stronger Looking into my eyes, You will touch on my heart When we’re holding hands it felt like we can go anywhere I want to be the person holding your hand Don’t you want me to? Answer me

FIRST POST!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeh... this is the first post of my beberapa'th blog. don't worry, i'm determined to keep this one this time. for now, at least, until i find some faults with google. which i don't think would happen anyway... and... i'd like to thank Ms Shin, my faithful blog reader. she's my bestie afterall! (considering that i don't post frequently ...)

So, to celebrate the occasion, i'm going to open a can of coke and play some PS2. so, until next time, when i can upload some song/review or something. Ja ne~